Quick note to the new parents:

Congratulations on the pregnancy!!!

Of course I could be horribly wrong and you could not be pregnant buttt.... I'm pretty sure I'll never be given a full blown answer and the internet is fairly reliable enough to decipher an answer.

Cheers!

So, as anyone who has been to my page in the past little bit has noticed, I haven't been around much.

Partially, it's due to a new job and trying to get Japan going but here's where I stop commenting.

Why?

Because as paranoid as it sounds, somebody is watching me.

Two people actually. Trying to decipher clues to some puzzle they've made up in their warped little heads. And believe me that I'm only writing this to send a message to them.


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Bugger off.

If you hate the past so much stop looking back at it like some sort of snow globe.

Say something rather then pretending you haven't been caught with your hand in the cookie jar.

If you want to talk, or ask a question, lets hear it.


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I found a nice little tutorial online about how to track who has visited web pages via IP addresses and logins. And low and behold, the first time I tried it, I found your number. And it keeps reappearing in a lot of places it shouldn't. Take my advice for once, leave it be, whatever it is you're looking for.

To everyone else, I'll figure out some way to keep posting a live account of works and ramblings under another alias, but for now, cheers and I love you all.




Even you two.

If you happened to be bored at work one day find yourself saying this:

"Hey remember that Corey kid from (insert time or place here)? What was his last name? Zotsiff? Zoinksoff? Hitler? No, Zaytsoff! I wonder whatever happened to him? I know, lets waste company time and google his name!"

And by doing so you happen to stumble across my little site, this is all you need to know:

-I'm rich
-Good looking
-Straight
-Yes, you can say you knew me before I was famous
-Yes, I am disease free
-I can not believe it isn't butter.

That's all,

Cheers!

To: A person who may never read this

Dear ______,



I know you've probably forgotten me in some way and it's only in some odd attempt to communicate with you that I write this but stranger things have happened in my life so I figured what the hell.

I hear you're currently in Hawaii. Congratulations! I knew you'd get there eventually and it's good you stopped talking about it and just went. I hope the sun treats your skin with care and the ocean sings you a song of peace and serenity.

As hard and as cryptic as it is to hear from you, I do enjoy your _____ still and hope you will create more as it paints an interesting picture of your mind. One that I know I am no longer privy to but I enjoy the small tidbits of it none-the-less.

Well you're over there, I figured it's about time that I finally make a few things known to you while you have time to think.



1. Back in October of 2006, I was diagnosed with a small form of brain cancer that effected my judgment and morality parts of my brain. This had been there since around just before September they speculated but was luckily treatable without any Chemo. I apologize for my actions during these times for most of them were primarily not my own.

2. You saved someones life with a decision on a phone not to long ago. I was shot, but her life was saved. She thanked me, but realistically, she thanked you. The question I posed to you was a "what if" scenario as I did have to injure another human being that night, something to this day I'm still haunted by with a bullet still lodged in my shoulder from her captor. But it was not the bleeding that almost killed me that night, it's that you made me feel like a monster for even asking for your advice. Funny how in a horribly life or death situation, your number was the only one I remembered even after all this time.

3. I agree, we are very different people. It hit me today while I was listening to a man talk about forgiveness and understanding. I can't imagine never wanting to talk to someone again. I couldn't do it. I love everyone I meet and wish happiness for even my strongest enemies. I would never be as selfish to make someone sit in the dark and wonder what exactly happened only to lead myself to the belief that I was some kind of monster. In short, I give, you take. But we already knew this. No two things are so different that they cannot co-exist.

4. Hiding behind people both physically or metaphorically will prove nothing in an journey to a state of metaphorical Nirvana. For someone who claims both secretly and poetically to be omniscient, you have a problem of basic human communication face to face with a dilemma. Remember this, even Jesus himself wore sandals, played guitar and ate at McD's like the rest of his target demographics.



I'm sorry you may never read this and I'm far more sorry if you ever do, but somehow, someway, I had to let you know because God knows, you give me very few options on how to do so.

Enjoy life, to it's fullest. Though you know a lot, you have a hell of a lot to learn. As was your parting words to me, I shall give a slightly tuned version to you:



Let me give you one last piece of advise, talk. Don't assume you know the answer because you believe us mortals are dumb enough to fall into a continual pattern in which we have no escape. Variables present themselves everyday and a lot of which, we have no control over. And if you have a distaste, voice it, otherwise one can only assume that you're either content or deciding how you feel.


Goodnight Ms. _____

Signed, Warren Peace



P.S. I still look forward to the day where we may talk like old friends again.

Baby Blue Sedan

By: Modest Mouse


A nice heart and a white suit and a baby blue sedan
And I am doing the best that I can
All the eunuchs, they were standing in rows
Singing, "Please stud us out just as fast as you possibly can."
Sad song, last dance and no one knows who the band was
And Henry, you danced like a wooden Indian
Except this one mattered and I felt it had a spirit
And I shot the story because I didn't hear it that way
And it's hard to be a human being
And it's harder as anything else
And I'm lonesome when you're around
And I'm never lonesome when I'm by myself
And I miss you when you're around


I love this song and I fell asleep outside in a park somewhere where no one was around...

The part that's stuck in my head is the last three lines:

And I'm lonesome when you're around
And I'm never lonesome when I'm by myself
And I miss you when you're around

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